Legs Up

Tilly and the Wall - Sing Songs Along

Mates of State - You Are Free

Last time a dead bird will ever inspire me.

Turning over and putting my feet back on the ground.

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-k

Trail

Time stole the joy we were hiding.

Heavy Heart

That is where the spirit fled

Away from my body, away from my head

I never meant this to be my plans

I've never seen a man so broken as the one who was in my hands

I'd take it all back if I could

I'll ask for forgiveness every day

Prayer and tears won't fix my past

Nothing will take my anguish away

I haven't heard anything you've been saying

For a week or two

My thoughts are

Keeping my mind busy

I'm stuck in my head repetitively praying

I can't fall out of love with you

The things I say

They refer to forever

Because I'm not ready to forget you

-k

Sleeping In

I Came As A Rat - Modest Mouse

Every time something bad happens I just sleep it all away.

But I'm so tired of being tired.

Nylon

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Don't Accede Less

Hot-Wired - Okay

happily content is nothing compared the the pure completion God has given me in the one puzzle piece that fits me perfectly.

-e

photo by - me with my cellphone's camera

lives are lost due to clean windows

Sip

In Our Talons - Bowerbirds

Each new day is oh so refreshing.

If you get a ton done today, or nothing, the feeling of a full brand new day is calming. The feeling of having sleep and the endless possibilities of what could happen today is making me feel like I have just taken a breath of fresh air.

Holding You Back

Turn On Me - Shins

When I keep my eyes on the past, I can't see what's in front of me.

Turtle to Dove

Pachuca Sunrise - Minus the Bear

I just realized all my life I have wanted to be the best at something. Be at the very top.

I have been interested in one thing and seen girls the same age as me excel past me.

I have watched myself try hard at something and be amazing in a friend or a mothers eyes; but in my eyes I saw the truth; I see the truth.

I am not the best I never will be number one.

I will always come in last compared to others.

But God said that last will be first and the first will be last.

I finally get it.

State of Mind

I'm ripped between Alaska and Maine

Marge and I played at the opening of the Underground. 3/26

photo by - http://coreybienert.blogspot.com/

Pressure Point

Song: Slide - The Dresden Dolls

People like happy people.

If I push hard enough will you believe that I am truly happy?

Arctic Sounds

Song: A Life Of Arctic Sounds - Modest Mouse

five weeks left of school.

five weeks and my first year of college is over.

five weeks left seeing the same people everyday.

seven days five times in a row.

how do i make them worth while.

after these five weeks i don't know if i will ever be back on this side of the states. i don't know if i will ever see some of these people again. its so unclear. and i hope i'm grasping every last second to the fullest.

Glue

Song: Waiting For Magic - Blackblck

Have me inspire you.

Paste

Song: Ogre Mountain - Blackblack

Have you inspire you.

Water Bear

They can survive being heated to 151 °C or being chilled for days at -272 °C. They can endure 5700 grays of x-ray, where as, we can copewith about 5. They can also withstand the extremely high and low pressure of a vacuum.

Tough.

My future, that I don't even have thoughtfully planned out, is crashing down around me. I can't take this weight on my shoulders any more.

I will endure pushing myself harder than any other person; and still come out behind in the end.

Consistency of failure is said to make you stronger. But, it is slowly tearing me into pieces of the person I once was.

How can I be stronger if I am only part of what I was? How can I be sure of anything if my whole thought process is now being questioned? How can I be confident if everything I believe in, everything I stand for, everything I support, all my hopes, dreams, oppinions, and thoughts are inconsistent and confusing to others, so they are uncomprehensible and therefore wrong?

I can withstand someone telling me my outcome of hard work produced amazing results as well as another person saying the complete opposite; that my produced piece of mind is repulsive and unacceptable. Highs and Lows.

But I swear I'm going to cry. I'm sick of trying to be tough.

Askew

Song: evidence of your done wrong going through my head

Since you got time anyways

why not watch me hurt

thats right, I did nothing

you were the mean one

Vestal Light

Song: Inflammatory Writ - Joanna Newsom

You really don't want me to analyze that. I can push myself to get to the end of my brain and come out with words that mean nothing to you. You consistently tell me you don't understand what I'm saying, but it makes perfect since to me.

Gen 1:3

My text does incite that light and it is lit.

Ice Tea

Song: Lover's Spit - Broken Social Scene

Future

Song: The Hypnotists Son (Take2) - Emmy The Great

Rewind. Go backwards. Five years ago did you have today planned? Four years ago did you know what you were going to be doing this month, or year?

I want the correct answers to this test of life.

I just want to fill in the blanks and know that I'm passing.

Know that I am somewhat heading in the right direction.

I'm under a bridge because He didn't call.

If God could just send me a drawn out map in a bird's beak, would I really feel peace of heart?

Perfect as Cats

Firefly - BlackBlack

Our life's an adventure. We'll fight it together. What ever happened, it wouldn't matter, because we would drive away and laugh.

Bolder

In Fact - Gregory and the Hawk

Sleep deprivation and stressful emotions bring back memories I thought were buried deep in my head. There back. I want to blow them out my nose and never have them again.

Please Never come back.

Boar

Song: Beast - Okay

There's just one kind of love

No half hearted, only one type.

Stop pretending you know what it is.

You could never come close to being able to love like that.

Unless it was towards yourself.

Grades control my world.

I have a few points to elaborate on;

presentation is everything.

consistency is reliable.

I found a soulmate that has a vagina.

Cats Meow

Bridges and Balloons - Joanna Newsom

I like my friend Corey.

I like my friend Marge.

I like people from these snowfilled lands.

They are the cats meow.

Oh my love, oh it was a funny little thing to be the ones to have seen this side of me

Underthoughts

Song: Feed Your Sheep a Burning Lamp - Half-Handed Cloud

Honestly, a conversation only becomes awkward or, you don't know what to say next, once you start thinking those exact things. So stop thinking that way and just talk to me.

Caterpillars

Song: Royal Dragon - Blackblack

My strength needs to lye within myself. 

I can give advice, but I haven't been strong enough to sing along.

I can't rely on any one, humans mess up, and some are mean.

But who wants predictability?

Funeral Pancakes

Song: Cobey Bienert Playing Random Songs

I like him more and more every day.

I'll share my brainwaves with her and only her.

Bridge Talk

Song: Don't - Cobey Bienert 

Oh its real.

Bandaid

Song: Hello Tomorrow - Karen O & Squeak E. Clean

When does missing someone become an unavoidable longing?

When is the right time the right time?

When does precision become precise?

Michele Thomas

Josh Manoles

Calculous Round 2

Machine

Song: Peach, Plum, Pear - Joanna Newsom

cute boys make you smile

great boys make laugh

but mine can make me cry

tears of purejoy

someone who knows everything about me

who knows me better than i know myself

he is my inspiration and motivation

forever isn't long enough

Limbs

Song: Whenever You Breath Out, I Breath In (Positive, Negative) - Modest Mouse

Find a new comfortable way to sit today.

Waves

Song: This Is My Love - Hercules & Love Affair

I didn't take her till about 12:00am

I hope it doesn't mess up my cycle

I need sleep

Returning to the unsolved problem

It's hitting me in waves

One day he'll get it

Till then I just need to learn to put up with it

Therapy

Song: Sea Ghost/Jellybones - The Unicorns

Still unmotivated.

I know what I want to do but I'd rather lay around.

round two 150mg

Sandals Shoes

Anxiety Depression

Crystal Meth Drugs

Scar Injury

Josh Therapy

He fits me like skin

Unmotivated

Song: Life Like Weeds - Modest Mouse

day 1 wellbutrin 150 mg

Robots

Song: We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed - Los Campesinos!

I can't piss excellence.

I don't know how to be a perfectionist.

I'm not a robot.

Human

But some lines you cant erase, some things you say you can't take back. Some grudges will never be fixed. Some things time can't even make you forget, and move on. blurrr it all out

Get me out of here.

Reality

Song: Quick and Painful - Free Blood

You think you're reading my mind..but really you're just reading my blog

Surface

Song: 

I feel like I'm sitting around wasting my life. My thoughts are no longer deep. My interest in appealing sound is fading. Maybe because I listen to music so much that I'm getting bored of the same noise going through my ears and out my nose.

The only thing that feels truly constructive is my time I spend with Josh. Every day he does something that makes me like him more and more.

How can I make myself feel like I'm not wasting my life away. I only get one of these things and I want to use every second of it. I want to leave a mark in this cold world. I want to do something no one else has done.

Will that longing ever be fulfilled?

Cake Date

Song: Marry Me - St. Vincent

The people next to me are so cute. There accents and their attire. The lady is quant and got a glass of wine while the guy holds a conversation abut work with his glass of beer. When she talks he looks deep into her eyes and smiles at her giggles. And she has class when she orders her meal.

They get in a small argument and the guy backs off, and then tries to start a conversation on a different topic. Her sister. His concern shows in the way he asks and she instantly opens up.

They may be classy and typical. But I just realized there bored the way they talk to each other. No one is interested in the other's stories. The girl talks drama the guy talks work. I don't want to be like that when I'm older.

Downfall

Song: Sophia - BlackBlack

I'm not going to make it.

Good Vibes

Song: The Good Times Are Killing Me - Modest Mouse

I absolutely love finding a band that no one knows about. A band that sounds exactly what you imagine the sound of your personal unique organs are making. A band that every word that spills out of the singers voice is just how you feel. I feel like a found the missing piece to the puzzle of my life. Like another freckle added to my face. Given to me from the joy of being in the sun for hours. Soaking up the rays. But, once that time passes soon the freckle fades. As will this piece of the puzzle. It will disappear and I'll soon move on to "better things". But, eventually look back and long for that feeling once again. Does this blog post mean something deeper than just a new found band?

Life Pace

Song: Jen Is Bringin' The Drugs - Margot & The Nuclear So and So's

Here's a pick me up for those hard days of classes and tracking through snow.

This is another album released in 2007. Before this all the finches had out was their Six Songs EP.

Enjoy and have a good cloud filled sky afternoon.

Human Like A House by The Finches

1. Human Like A House

2. June Carter Cash

3. Last Favor

4. Nightswimming, AR

5. LAY

6. The House Under the Hill

7. Two Ghosts

8. Goettingen, Du

9. O L A

10. If We Knew...

11. Step Outside

12. Leviathans Home!

http://rapidshare.com/files/117306044/tf07.rar.html

School

Song: Nightmares - Billie The Vision And The Dancers

It's the first day of school. The sun came out I want to swallow it and keep it in my stomach forever to keep me warm. And, let it shine so bright. I guess thats how Christ is suppose to be in my life. Shining out of my fingers and the tips of my hair and flowing out of my mouth. You know I need you Christ.

MGMT

This Album was released October 2nd in 2007 and it's made it all the way to '09!! So to celebrate go bleach some chunks in your hair and download this rar file :)

Happy New Years

Oracular Spectacular by MGMT

1. Time to Pretend

2. Weekend Wars

3. The Youth

4. Electric Feel

5. Kids

6. 4th Dimensional Transition

7. Pieces of What

8. Of Moons, Birds and Monsters

9. The Handshake

10. Future Reflections

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