Water Bear

They can survive being heated to 151 °C or being chilled for days at -272 °C. They can endure 5700 grays of x-ray, where as, we can copewith about 5. They can also withstand the extremely high and low pressure of a vacuum.

Tough.

My future, that I don't even have thoughtfully planned out, is crashing down around me. I can't take this weight on my shoulders any more.

I will endure pushing myself harder than any other person; and still come out behind in the end.

Consistency of failure is said to make you stronger. But, it is slowly tearing me into pieces of the person I once was.

How can I be stronger if I am only part of what I was? How can I be sure of anything if my whole thought process is now being questioned? How can I be confident if everything I believe in, everything I stand for, everything I support, all my hopes, dreams, oppinions, and thoughts are inconsistent and confusing to others, so they are uncomprehensible and therefore wrong?

I can withstand someone telling me my outcome of hard work produced amazing results as well as another person saying the complete opposite; that my produced piece of mind is repulsive and unacceptable. Highs and Lows.

But I swear I'm going to cry. I'm sick of trying to be tough.